Once upon a time......I felt loved. Over the years I had thought I loved......but it wasn't until I met Him, experienced Him, that I knew what real love was.
I used to look forward to going to sleep each night because I dreamt about the life I wanted.....and when with Him.....I found myself not wanting to sleep.....I was living the dream.
What made it so real was that he loved me too. For the first time I truly knew what being loved felt like. Everything was so easy. We knew each other's thoughts. We moved like sparrows in flight....in sync at every turn.
I didn't need caffeine or sugar. The energy within me bubbled over and out. Nothing was too difficult. No task too daunting. My body was light. My feet barely touched the ground....and my heart floated. It was magical. And I sparkled.....from the inside out. My eyes. My smile. Ever cell of me sparkled.
And then he was gone.....My forever lost.....my dreams shattered.....
Now there is just darkness....so much darkness....my body feels as though it is weighted down....every movement requires effort.....every day gets darker....hopeless....loveless.
Once upon a time.....I used to sparkle.
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i'll grant i only know you from your page here but i suspect that sparkle can be generated apart from HIM. you have a big heart and a certain zest. rest, heal...you'll sparkle again, with or without him. i know you have it in you.
Dear Dragonfly,
A diamond doesn't lose its luster when it is covered in darkness, its glorious presence is only hidden from view for a time. Your luster is still there. I know because I have seen it :-)
It makes life so beautiful when someone holds you so that your radiance shines in full view, so the light hits you in just the right way and you can sparkle and be your very best. And I know that it is beyond sad - it is devastating - to lose those moments in your life.
But diamonds are molded by pressure and they are even more beautiful when they emerge. Your darkness isn't permanent. Something, some circumstance or someone will shine light on you again so that your magnificent facets will be revealed for all the world to see.
Never lose hope, Dragonfly. You are so full of life and love. You know how to love others and through that your love will grow and return to you. Dreams may be shattered at times, but you will never be. And you will always, always, always sparkle.
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