Once upon a time.....I sparkled....

Once upon a time......I felt loved.  Over the years I had thought I loved......but it wasn't until I met Him, experienced Him, that I knew what real love was.

I used to look forward to going to sleep each night because I dreamt about the life I wanted.....and when with Him.....I found myself not wanting to sleep.....I was living the dream.

What made it so real was that he loved me too.  For the first time I truly knew what being loved felt like. Everything was so easy.  We knew each other's thoughts.  We moved like sparrows in flight....in sync at every turn.

I didn't need caffeine or sugar.  The energy within me bubbled over and out.  Nothing was too difficult.  No task too daunting.  My body was light.  My feet barely touched the ground....and my heart floated.  It was magical.  And I sparkled.....from the inside out.  My eyes.  My smile.  Ever cell of me sparkled.

And then he was gone.....My forever lost.....my dreams shattered.....

Now there is just darkness....so much darkness....my body feels as though it is weighted down....every movement requires effort.....every day gets darker....hopeless....loveless.

Once upon a time.....I used to sparkle.